Wierd day today...I guess yesterday now....Gave a test that I'm quite likely to flunk. Attended a fest that downright sucked in my opinion and well had a dilemna of sorts. Now I can't sleep wondering if I did the right thing. Still I don't feel like the day was a complete waste. WIERD...that's what I'd call this.
There's no simple explanation to why I'm writing this post at 12:32 AM while listening to frigging Steven Tyler croon away Sweet Emotion. I would like to sleep very much but I've failed to do that. I've been tryin since 10:30. There's this endless barrage of questions racing through my head interluded by bizarre, disturbing scenarios. It's a surprise I haven't fainted like what seems to be half the college's guys...
Well, cliched as it is but we gotta learn to prioritise everything we do. We gotta decide where everyone stands in our pecking order. Pretty brutal it is. When you have to choose between doing something you wanna do and hurting someone you love doing that thing. When that someone doesn't like what you're gonna do and at the same time you wanna experience something new. When two facets of your life collide and threaten to tear each other apart. Brutal, absolutely.
I guess I have no choice but to wait for the morning and sort this mess out. I have a feeling there won't be any sleep tonight.
I seem to have regained my skill at painting dark pictures. Is that good or bad I can barely decide....
Moving to the test I mentioned. I don't know what I'm gonna do about this semester. I just can't study. One might say too many distractions but it's just ridiculous that I don't have appetite for a subject I like. It's ridiculous for me at least....My point ? I've lost track where I'm going and I'm losing hope again...I'm beginning to realise my academic performance matters more to me than I make myself believe...I am the cliched Indian student perhaps...
That's all folks...I hope you aren't insomniacs like me tonight and are ready for a good night's sleep after reading all that. Me ? I'll try to find another passtime (not easy as my portable HDD is in somebody else's room...).
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