29.7.10

College finally started and well, i don't know what to make of it....Nothing much is like i thought it would be. Its crazy, absolutely. Past six months i've never been this lost for words....i guess all new experiences are like this. Damn i hate not knowing, most of all not knowing how i'm feeling.

Well, the classes are pretty much boring till now. Nothing new taught yet, so thats pretty much explainable. Python is simple till now, based pretty much on c++, its not a problem. The other subjects, discrete maths and digital circuits, i'm not sure what to expect and i'm hoping that i get through them somehow. System Management i'm quite sure i'm gonna like, so its not likely to be a problem.

Well thats enough about academic life. Its going on like it always has with little change. Personal life, well that's the same too. I'm still longing for close company. I'm still a goner when it comes to social interaction and well that pretty much seals it doesn't it ?? Literally.

So, i'm on with my life, trying to figure out what i'm supposed to do. Trying to second guess my own decisions. Drowning in self-doubt and loathing my incompetence at pretty much everything. Sure, life is beautiful !!